20 Weeks

How far along? 20 Weeks! Only 20 more to go!

Symptoms? I've had some occasional puffy feet when I've been sitting too long or been standing too long. It's hard to find a happy medium!

Maternity Clothes? This is a big duh now....whoa, baby belly!

Sleep: When I'm asleep, I sleep well. However, I only sleep for about an hour or two at a time, then I wake up super sore and have to flip to the other side. I spend the night flipping over from side to side....it gets kinda of old and I miss sleeping on my back!
Best moment this week: We had a great time in Indianapolis for Drum Corps finals. We got to hang out with Christopher's brother, see some old drum corps friends, and enjoy a night of great performances. Not to mention, we stayed in an awesome suite in downtown Indy AND we had Skyline Chili. WIN!!!

Miss Anything? Hot dogs....even though I definitely cheated by eating two little coney dogs from Skyline.....but now I am craving them more! So yum.

Movement: Little man is moving around...usually at night. I've been feeling more kick like movements lately as well. I swear I thought I could feel him with my hand on Saturday, but I'm not exactly sure.

Food cravings: Peanut butter and banana sandwiches. And chocolate chip Eggo waffles. MMmmmmm!
Anything making you queasy or sick:Nothing making me feel sick this week! Yay!
Have you started to show yet: I feel like the bump has really poked out more this week--WHOA.
Gender prediction: Little guy
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time:Happy---because we are halfway! How overwhelming is that?!?
Weekly Wisdom: If it ain't broke, don't fix it.
Looking forward to: Getting to see my sweet baby at my 20 week scan tomorrow! I can't wait to see how much he's grown! :)

On another note....

This weekend was my original due date with Baby Bean. It's hard to wrap my head around the emotions I feel in regards to knowing that time has come and gone. I spent some time reflecting on the 'what-ifs' I've tried not to dwell on. If we hadn't miscarried, we would (most likely) have a new little baby at home. However, then I wouldn't have this growing baby boy in my belly now. Even though the love and loss I felt (and still feel) for my first baby is very real, the love and relationship I have for our second baby is just as strong and growing. It's hard to believe I can feel as happy as do after the devastation I felt in January. How humbling it is to know that this is all part of a greater plan and my place in God's story.